Wednesday, 19 March 2008

wishes do come true

Remember how I was pining for a Janome sewing machine last year? Well I haven't posted anything about it for ages, but in September, to celebrate our wedding anniversary, the hubby bought one for me! Here's a photo of that wonderful sunny day. See how the little one looks a bit worried that her mummy seems to have found a new baby. Hee.

Unfortunately, I have not made anything with the machine yet. For ages I was so scared of trying it out lest I did something horribly wrong to it. Again, it was the hubby who helped me by showing me how to thread the machine and do basic stitches with it. Indeed, I had no reason to fear the machine. I do fear sewing patterns though. I bought a couple of Simplicity patterns for baby dresses and dear me, Sofia will soon graduate to toddlerhood, but I still haven't gotten round to sewing the dresses. It took me a long time—and about ten sewing books for beginners—to understand half of the sewing instructions. I only just recently bought the notions I need. I have cut out the patterns, and all I need to do now is iron them, cut the fabric, and sew sew sew! I'm really excited albeit a bit apprehensive too. But I will definitely get started on it as soon as I finish the book I'm editing.

Tuesday, 18 March 2008

tempus fugit

Wow, does time fly. Here I am, still finding it hard to believe sometimes that I am now mother to two children, yet it is nearly time to let go of my life as a stay-at-home mum and go back to work. I haven't been thinking much about work, but I have just about six weeks left of my maternity leave. I have already made childcare arrangements for Lucas and Sofia, that difficult part of the big change has at least been dealt with now. It's just my aching heart that needs to adjust to the fact that I'll never again be able to spend as much time as I did with my babies in the past year. On the one hand, I'm glad I'm going back to a world that has nothing to do with babies or schoolchildren learning to read and do maths. On the other hand, I have enjoyed spending a lot of time with Lucas and Sofia and watching them grow and change. I will truly miss the days of just lying in bed with a sleeping baby next to me, or the contentment brought by a little boy snuggling up to me as we read a story together without thinking about how late it was. My babies, I will miss just being here, solid and unchanging, for you to cling to when life became too overwhelming sometimes. I will still be here for you though, even as I go through changes myself.