Tuesday, 18 March 2008
Wow, does time fly. Here I am, still finding it hard to believe sometimes that I am now mother to two children, yet it is nearly time to let go of my life as a stay-at-home mum and go back to work. I haven't been thinking much about work, but I have just about six weeks left of my maternity leave. I have already made childcare arrangements for Lucas and Sofia, that difficult part of the big change has at least been dealt with now. It's just my aching heart that needs to adjust to the fact that I'll never again be able to spend as much time as I did with my babies in the past year. On the one hand, I'm glad I'm going back to a world that has nothing to do with babies or schoolchildren learning to read and do maths. On the other hand, I have enjoyed spending a lot of time with Lucas and Sofia and watching them grow and change. I will truly miss the days of just lying in bed with a sleeping baby next to me, or the contentment brought by a little boy snuggling up to me as we read a story together without thinking about how late it was. My babies, I will miss just being here, solid and unchanging, for you to cling to when life became too overwhelming sometimes. I will still be here for you though, even as I go through changes myself.